Apparently I'm not the only one who feels this way. Mandy sent that tweet to some peoples today, and I replied that I had that exact title sitting in my drafts.
What do we do now? Do we just pick up and continue on in the manner we were before? It seems crass to do so. But at the same time, Gitz wouldn't want us to wallow. In fact, it would be insulting to her memory to sulk. But how does one "do mourning" on the social media sites? It's not like we can shroud our blogs in black for a year and miss a Season.
Perhaps, it means being more intentional in our blogging, tweeting, whatever. Being more real. You know, more than normal. (I know I've held back a whole bunch) Trusting more with our stories. Always extend friendship.
Perhaps it means being more present in all aspects of our lives; both "in real life" and online. Live fully in both, not one or the other. Enjoy how they intermingle, instead of compartmentalising them, if that's what you do.
I do know that I'll be carrying Gitz with me. She'll be that little voice that says "just write" when I think I can't. She'll be the encourager when I do. I will miss her comments, her presence, but I think I know her well enough to know what she'd say. I'll think of her when I see the sunset, Cora's curls and Oreos. When I can't be bothered doing whatever, she'll be the reminder to be joyful, and thankful that I can. She will be forever ingrained in some friendships... not the glue, but the bow.
What do we do now?
We live.
And we live fully.
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So, uh, what do we do now?
Monday 3 October 2011
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Jen
Beautiful post. Sometimes it is hard to be open...be fully real because it also opens us up to being hurt by people. But I think that we saw with Gitz that she didn't allow that fear to interfere with making real relationships...and seeing the beauty that brought to so many people is reason enough to step out in faith and try!! Blessings to you!
Kristin
(I can't get signed into my google account for some reason when I comment...does it on several sites so I don't know...but anyways I wouldn't choose "anonymous" normally. :) ) Just thought I would clear that up...in case you were wondering. If you weren't then completly ingore this last paragraph!! :)
Live and live fully.
That is it.
I have been feeling that "what now" feeling too, and I love that you had this real "I don't know, but I'm working it out" moment here. That is what realness and community is about.
Yep. This.